With ALL your heart

I’ve started out about 9 different personal blog posts these past few months. I keep writing down things I want to remember and then I trail off, never to finish. I used to be really good about writing my thoughts down. Lately I’m flighty and distracted. I blame Facebook. It’s not entirely true, but it’s a good excuse. I’ve started my grad program at UNCW this fall and it may destroy me. If I disappear you’ll know it was due to spontaneous combustion caused by the many taxonomies, methodologies, and learning outcomes. Learning new things is exciting for me. Learning completely new concepts that don’t come naturally to me drive me crazy.

“But from there you will search again for the LORD your God. And if you search for him with all your heart and soul, you will find him.” NLT – Deuteronomy 4:29

I was reminded by a dear friend tonight that I have to give all of these things up to the Lord, even if I think I can handle it on my own. It was actually a very “duh” moment for me. I’ve been praying these last few weeks about Seth’s job and peace of mind, but not willing to hand over my own personal stress. Yeah. Duh. Funny, it doesn’t say search for him half heartedly when things get a little rough. Got to give it ALL up. Something to work on.

The things I want to remember from today, I can’t do it on my own-not even the small stuff. I wanted to quit my graduate program-but I’ve never quit anything and I’m not starting with this. Amazing friendships, the unyielding supportive and love of my husband and God’s grace will get me through the next 2 years.